May 1, 2014- The day we prepared to celebrate life for our Sweet Bella here on earth. It never once crossed our minds that we could lose our precious 36-week old baby girl we had dreamed of. As we headed to the hospital with the thoughts that my water had broken, we just knew she would be tiny... But so Beautiful. My only request to God was black hair just like her daddy. Gauge was ready with his pink shirt to match. Her room was more beautiful than I could have ever imagined... Coral flamingos we just knew she would be what completed our family. We couldn't wait to see her sleeping in all her precious new gowns. For 9 months we had planned birthdays in our minds. We even had an Easter dress in case she was a little early. I had enough clothes to clothe a small army. She was ours... We THOUGHT. How could she not be? To remember that night gives me chills all over deep inside, a terror one cannot describe...On Tuesday, April 8, 2014, after a day of work and Bible study, Our Mighty God Chose Bella to come home with Him, The ultimate Maker, and be among the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven! As hard as it is to process, we know without doubt she is in His hands, being loved with a love no earthly parent can offer. As for our family we have also learned to Love in a much deeper way. God has revealed so many things to us all for his Glory! I have moments of rage, pure terror, sorrow and guilt. Not guilt that I could have changed anything, but a guilt of not Loving enough being selfish and not completely giving my all to Christ when He trusted me to care for HIS child not mine. All these feelings pass most times within and hour, and above all I have an indescribable peace that only My Savior can give. Do not let satan steal your peace. I have learned how he works, and he loves weak, hurting Christians. If you do not know Jesus as your personal friend and Savior, I ask that you to give him your All.. Absolute All.. Give all your pain and hurts to him now, and I Promise you He will give you that peace worth living for! Without His peace and assurance, we my friends would have no hope. It dosent matter what you have done, He will forgive you. Just ask. Pray to our Mighty God now... If you wait, it could be too late. We, my friends, are not guaranteed anything especially life on earth. We have learned first hand.
So take His hand.
Bella Glen Montgomery with not a single breath on earth is ministering already. What a Blessing.
I will praise you in this Storm...
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