What do you Long for?

We all loaded up Friday full of energy, laughs and coffee. We were excited to get away and have a little fun! I was uneasy. Praying constantly "Lord keep me together" please. I just want to be like everyone else with there minds wandering on shopping, eating and The Lord. Yes I do still think on normal things but usually my happy thoughts are shot down with doubt-insecurity and Bella. You see.. She literally consumes me, my every thought. all . day . Long. We just take every single moment for granted. I long for The Lord to consume me the way she does. It is a constant battle in my mind between satans negative thoughts and Jesus my Savior. Anyways we ate and ate some more and headed to see Beth Moore! Here is what I brought home after a weekend of great friends and worshiping our Savior!

What do you long for??? If your like me your a bit puzzled at the question. I hope this helps you. 

A longing is defined as a desire, a lust, to covet, to literally stretch out with the hands to reach after. We long for Love and for relationships. We desire things of this world and once they are attained we desire something else.

Did you know The Lord longs for you?? Have you ever Longed for him? Honestly I have lived 27 years not trouble free, but under the thought process that I had it ALL under control myself. I didn't need God but just every now and then. But Geez Louise I can not make it a day without him now. Not a minute. I would break and break everyone with me. Satan could use me to destroy my whole family and I stand or sit lol here now and I REFUSE to let him. I honestly Long for The Lord, I need him... I pray each of you would need him like I do. To feel helpless and own your own is no way to live. Trust Jesus... Reach for him... He will hold your hand or carry you which ever you need.

I am feeble and sorely broken; I have groaned because of the disquiet of my heart.
Lord, all my desires are known to Thee; and my groaning is not hidden from Thee.
My heart panteth, my strength faileth me; as for the light of mine eyes, it also is gone from me. 
Psalm 38:8-10

1) All our Longings lie open before The Lord. 

2)  If it is not long, it's not a longing. 

3) If it never aches, it is not intense enough for longing.

Some people put lids on there longings and some people hang theirselves by them.

Therefore The Lord LONGS to be gracious to you, and therefore he waits on high to have compassion on you. For The Lord is a God of justice; how blessed are all those who LONG for him.     Isaiah 30:18

A longing is a want for so long it becomes a need for your soul.

4) A longing fulfilled is a tree of life. Not The tree of life but A tree.

And he showed me a pure river of the Water of Life, clear as crystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb. In the midst of the street of it, and on either side of the river, there was the Tree of Life, which bore twelve kinds of fruit and yielded her fruit every month; and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations.     Revelation 22:1-2

For we are Gods handiwork created in Christ unto good works which God has before ordained that we should walk in them.     Ephesians 2:10

For I recon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us for the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God.  Romans 8:18-19

5) If God prepared it, we were wired to long for it. You got that??? If God prepared it we were wired to long for it?? I had to say that one several times! In other words we try to fill the void we long for with desires. Which does not work... If God prepared it, we are wired for it!

6) We are created to long for companionship.

7) Lust is the souls demand to shortcut a longing fulfilled.

8) We long for Grace.

For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time for my departure is near. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day and not only to me, but also to all who have LONGED for his appearing.     2 Timothy 4:6-8

9) We Long for God.

So what do you long for? Jesus or the world? I long for Jesus and for him to use Me, he has a master plan and he wired me to long for him. I long to reach others to help them seek his face. To help place your hand in his. I Pray Lord use me.. I pray you mend me and my broken pieces into a beautiful pitcher overflowing with your Love and compassion. Use my loss as your gain. Keep my eyes on you. Thank you Lord for answered prayers for friends who understand me and love me despite my shortcomings. You have overcame the world! In Jesus name Amen. And amen!

Everything high must come down
Every stronghold shall be broken
He wears the victors crown!! Praise Jesus He overcame the world!

Praying for a Rainbow

 Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth. Gen 9:16

Everything is beautiful then the rain comes, lightening strikes and trees fall. All the rain stops and out comes a rainbow from behind the clouds. This is a great example of my life, it's still raining and were praying for a rainbow. Rainbows do not always come after the rain but sometimes they do. This is my fear.
What if our rainbow never comes??

Lord I put my hope, my trust, what's left of me...the shattered pieces of my once beautiful in my own eyes life, all in your hands.  I want to hope, dream and trust but my flesh is scared of death. Help me to trust you and you alone and only listen for your voice. 
 In Jesus name, Amen.

Lathered up in anger Thanking Jesus he has set me free.

That's what my flesh wants to do. Lather up, soak and let the smell of anger and hurt soak deep inside my pores. Ever feel that way??? I want to lick my wounds a little longer a good friend of mine once said. I can picture an animal licking there wound. That's kinda what I felt like today. Weird huh. I know. An animal of all things.. Ready to pounce and attack. I stood and tried to compose myself every way I knew how and all that happened was nothing...
So I went to a quiet place not really looking for Jesus's face but knowing I needed him if I wanted to survive this. Hurt so bad by ones we love. And they say they love us. The firey flaming arrows of satan thrown at me while at my weakest ever.
 Before I knew it God was speaking to me, not in a quite voice because I assure you I wasn't trying to find him, He actually sang to me... Loudly.. The words

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown, where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep, my faith will stand
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours, and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed, and You won't start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours, and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours, and You are mine

Such a beautiful song. I'm not perfect people nor do I claim to be. I'm a Hott mess any way you look at me. I sin more often than I would like to admit, But my Jesus loves me the same.
Lord thank you for saving me from the firey arrows thrown at me today. Forgive me Lord for waisting my time  entertaining demons. Keep my eyes above the waves when the ocean rise. I pray for anyone reading this, that they find peace during life's struggles and seek your face first. In Jesus sweet name Amen..❤️❤️Cherish

Stand firm therefore, having girded you loins with truth, and having out on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace, in addition to al, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the FLAMING arrows of the evil one. Ephesians 6: 14-16

Me and my big mouth

It's been two months... And it honestly feels more like two years. The days alone drag by with a feeling of no purpose. I thought I'd be holding a baby, changing diapers and fixing bottles. Instead I'm seeking Gods face. I'm in no way thankful that we lost or baby, but I am thankful for God choosing me to carry her. Because of Bella our lives have turned in another direction, one I never thought it would. I have always loved to talk... My husband would say to much! We all have gifts from God! And he calls us to use them. Before my talking was pretty much useless... Babbling on about pretties and such.. What I thought I needed and wanted. I would have never called my talking a gift lol!! Never! If anything a curse because it always seemed to get me into more trouble. Anyways... I'm trying to think more before I speak and remember everyone is fighting a hard battle. I pray now that only encouraging things come out of my mouth! None of that useless babble. I'm pretty sure the bible speaks against it! So pray for me and that I use this "gift" of talking to honor our God and Not myself. 

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     The reason for this blog is for those of you suffering from grief to have a place to come and share. To hopefully be encouraged and to seek Gods face and let him heal you. There are hundreds of people viewing! Imagine if we all prayed for you! Please submit your request in the comments. Me and my family would love to pray for you, and I'm sure others will to! 💗💗💗Cherish